Nowadays, my favorite expression is, ‘Giving up is a pleasure too.’
  In the book ‘To Live a Simple Life Is Happy’ by Mumu, there is a quote, ‘You should be enjoying abandonment if you want to be happy.’ After I read this, my head was frozen like I was hit in the back of my head. Perhaps, the sentence that I want to hear these days is about abandonment. I never learned the way to give up on anything.
  When I go to school, problems always happen. I have troubles with friends, and it bothers me. Although I know I could end my relationships with those friends, it is hard to let go of someone’s hands while enduring pain. For instance, in the past, I knew that some of my projects were hard to deal with realistically, but I didn’t give up. Giving up could have made me happier, but I couldn’t do this. In the end, I was unhappy.
  One of the strict regulations I have given myself is the rule not to give up on anything. I think that I must do my best. However, if I abandon something, it seems that I don’t do my best, and it seems that I don’t have a sense of responsibility. Naturally, I shut myself in a strict standard by making promises to myself. Eventually, the pressure of the standard presses down hard, and the worries of not to give up make my head hurt. Ultimately, it has exhausted me more and more.
  I have had a lot of hard times from not releasing people whom I love. Also, I haven’t been able to quit the projects which I should have given up on. The common feature here is the unsatisfactory result. Like all people, I can’t accept unfortunate consequences. I say to myself, ‘If I tried, could I get along better with them?’ or, ‘If I prepare a project on a better subject, could I get a better result?’ I can’t let go of regrets about the past, so I miss the happiness of the present. I leave behind the happiness of the present. Nothing can change the past. Therefore, I will give up regretting and will organize my thoughts about the past.
  Now, I will give up the thoughts about unfortunate consequences. I don’t have to regret anything because I know I will do my best wherever and whenever. I will think that abandonment is a way to be happy too. It is more important to concentrate on people near me and work on what I should do. I will come out from my suppressed thick frame from now on.
  I want to say this to others, ‘You must learn how to abandon. Abandonment is not so bad. To live with a burden of your back makes you unhappier.’ The past won’t be changed and can’t be changed. Nothing will change the results even if you worry about the past.
  I will ease such strict regulations for myself to repel the burden surrounding me. I will live life by becoming more lenient on myself. I will learn the way to abandon to live a happier life than before.